Quarter life crisis

Today I uploaded my first video to YouTube You can check it out at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQKsEgWTYV4.It contains footage from 5-6 years ago of some of Dinkibike's first shows. I watched myself in this footage - A Skinny, tall kid with multicoloured hair and a tonne of attitude playing music with his friends and giving a big "Fuck you" to the world. We may have been rebelling against the usual teen cliched stuff but it just didn't matter, We felt important.At what point do we decide that it is time to grow up, that these causes are unworthy and we lose the edge and attitude of sincerely not caring what anyone else thinks and being happy to be a freak? Why is it that as our actions become more significant to the world around us we feel that we are insignificant and we can't change the world?These are questions I don't have the answer to right now but I certainly don't think that the young freak in the video has truly left and I am pledging to let him take control from time to time.