Sunday, March 20, 2011

Some facts and figures from the completion of my University career

With only weeks and months to go until I am finished my formal studies which will have seen me complete a Bachelor of Arts degree and postgraduate Master of Teaching (Secondary) I have been pondering some of the statistics from university career

In the past 5 years I have:
- Written approximately 40 essays between 1000-2000 words each
- Referred to and read at least 400 books and journal articles
- Spent approximately 480 hours in lecture theatres
- Spent approximately 720 hours in Tutorial groups
- Printed at least 320 pages of essays
- Spent 20 months on inter session breaks

All of those numbers I don't remember much of it.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Riley's adventures with Alice in Wonderland

I can't believe I have never read this book, neither could anyone else as it turns out.
Earlier this week, My father and I ventured out into Rural NSW to play courier again. KNowing that there was a good chance I would be bored out of my mind, I took my Kobo eReader along on the trip. I have been going through the Kobo in Alphabetical order so having read the adventures of Tom Sawyer which resulted in me electing to skip over the adventures of Huckelberry Finn and deciding that I really wouldn't stand much chance of getting through the 100+ chapters of Aesop's fables I opened Alice's adventures in wonderland.
This book is so well written. Lewis Carol writes in such an engaging and expressive way that the events and characters of the book leap off the page in HD colour and carry the reader away in the same way that Alice has been carried away. I was expecting this story to be far darker from what I had known of it before and was, quite honestly, pleasantly surprised at how bright it was while still being intelligent and odd. I think references people have read into the text are highly exaggerated and have come from people who are of the belief that anything that is out of the ordinary and beyond this world must need revolve around chemical enhancement. Yes, The girl eats mushrooms that make her taller and shorter and sees talking white rabbits etc, but this text pre dates the stories and songs (such as 'White Rabbit') that used the visuals of Wonderland to represent the intoxified state.
I would recommend this book to anyone who hasn't read it (even though I think I might be the only one) as it is fun and innocent as well as being inightful and clever with multiple layers that are presented in a way that is not as self indulgent and forcefully cliched as some other anti-children's fiction (I am looking at you, Snicket). Fun for all ages

The holiday Rut takes over

The opinions expressed in the following blog may not be my own. They may be the feelings and opinions of the holiday rut.

Relaxing holiday = Stress, boredom, apathy and depression
I have been on holidays for about 2-3 weeks since Uni ended for the year and already I am the feelings usually reserved for 2 months into this 3 month break. This depression usually sinks in as I find myself in a rut of having nothing to do and no direction for my days with television and music no longer satisfying my urges to waste time.
The ironic part of the holiday rut coming early is that I have been pretty busy the whole time.

Last week saw me work all weekend washing trucks and then follow it up with working at a courier for a night driving paper cups around South Western Sydney. I was quite impressed with my car, which has been giving me trouble lately, in terms of it's reliability and economy for this long period of driving.

I was fortunate enough to be able to have some alone time with Kate for a few days. I got to sleep while she was at work and then got to pester her while she tried to sleep. All in all it was a pleasant time, however, It may have been the start of the rut. The waiting around and oversleeping while Kate was at school and work tricked my body into thinking it was bored and that there was nothing to do despite the fact that I have some projects that I am currently working on that have set deadlines.

One of the aforementioned projects involves Dinkibike. After a meeting with our management at which I think some wires got crossed, we have been given the task of producing one song a week up until the end of January with our producer coming to check on progress every fortnight. In one respect, this is a good thing as we have discovered that the band does not work diligently without a deadline. On the other hand, in practice, this deadline has so far not produced any real fruits and is not the way we usually go about writing.
I have been very proud of our Drummer, Michael, for producing 2 sets of very good lyrics that have formed the basis of the first two songs that we will present to our producer. I am concerned that the method of songwriting that we are currently working with will ultimately result in these two songs of Mike's falling by the wayside as they are not being given time to grow organically and are being forced and causing the band to have resentment and apathy towards the songs. There is certainly potential in these songs but I am unsure if the potential will be reached under this high pressure situation that is putting strains on relationships in the band and our relationship with the band. Last night, we found ourselves struggling to find motivation and I was very close to walking out of the rehearsal room forever. There are a variety of reasons for this besides the deadlines that have been building up for a little while now and we have discovered that talking them out just results in bullshit from all participants. It is getting harder and harder to recover from these feelings than it used to be. The lack of success the band has had in the past year and our personal responsibilities and obligations are making the band an obligation that is not very fun right now. Last night I wrote the embryo of two songs, from the dynamics in the band and the softer nature of the songs themselves, there is little chance that I will present this to the band to be ignored and have my self esteem beaten down even more. I have produced a couple of bits and pieces that I will offer to the band but I don't expect that they will be acknowledged so I will be putting my creative energy into whatever little ideas pop in to my head whether they are appropriate for the band or not. If I don't feel like giving them to the band or the band overlook these tunes I am going to share them with all of my friends by way of YouTube. Hopefully this will see my love for music return.
Once again, The holiday rut is playing into my thoughts regarding the band and I do need to be aware of the rut's influence over my thought processes before making any decisions. These guys are my best friends and we have had some great times and produced some music that has made us happy and if we can resume being happy and having fun then Dinkibike will never end and will only be stronger for this experience. I just fear that there is only so many times that we can bounce back.
One band project that excites me is our YouTube channel which we are hoping to launch at full steam once my holiday rut passes and I can't start working constructively with the guys to produce and edit some entertaining stuff and hopefully encourage the wider world to care in the slightest about what we are doing because it is hard to care about yourself when no one cares about you.
My car runs out of rego on Saturday so I expect to have no money yet again have another rut filled week next week.
I am hoping to be able to send my documents for my DET meeting tomorrow. If I can't manage this, I will know that the rut has well and truly set in and that I need a job or something else to fill my time.

Signed
The Holiday rut that bites the tongue

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

half a song

Do you want to be found out
shut your mouth
Do you wanna hear what they have said
Do you want to be dead?

Do you want to leave your man
and contend
deal with truth and pain and consequence
Do you want to regret?

I'll handle it
keep it secret
if you can bite your tongue
and promise to keep it too
we don't know
what they'll do
when they know what we've been up to

we're beautiful

I
Have never seen your face before
This is anticapation
I
Have wanted you so long

You walk into the room
all eyes have turned to you
and then gracefully you step aside

What amazes me
is the way you fail to see that you're beautiful

I
Have never seen this place before
in my imagination
Time is stretched so far and long

As you walk into this room
the lights all shine for you
and gracefully you step inside

and what amazes me is the way you fail to see
that its all for you

I
am standing here outside your door
This is anticipation
Smile
and stare right into you
You let me in the room
and deep inside of you
And i never want to leave your side

What amazes me
Is the warmth you give to me
and we're beautiful